i need some time to vent. Ive fallen into this routine of work and school that I feel i dont have time to sit down and take a breather. well here it is…this is my breather.

I completely stopped writing in my study abroad blog lol so i think what im going to do is im going to start choosing a picture of every place i went to and talk about it. where it was taken, when, what i did that day, etc. even though ill be cheating a little, ill still be able to reminisce on my experience before i start forgetting those wonderful memories. i know they shouldnt be forgotten but you know how things get blurry with time (and alcohol jk:). 

I had my first midterm today in : Developmental Sociological Theory. that class makes me want to run around naked and say fuck you to society lol. I mean i know we have all these norms imposed on us but we dont think about them often. when i do sit there and think about the way society has this unseen power over us, i want to quit my job, drop out of school, and do absolutely whatever the fuck comes to mind. buuuut i cant do that lol. its just fun to thin k about i guess. poop

weellll i have 3 more midterms to study for so i guess this is a nice introduction to the many posts coming tumblr way from now on. 

Ive been writing in my study abroad blog this whole time (kind of) lol but im slowly going to start writing in this one too.

Umm for now all i have to say iiisssss Ive lost 50 pounds!!!  yayyyyyy. Gosh i look at old pictures of myself and i cant believe i let myself get so big and so damn unhealthy. :/ but the good thing is that now im eating healthier, working out is a SET part of my life since ive made it a routine for almost a year now, and i look goood! lol i still have some more punds to shed so i can get back to that “high school” bod & the best thing is that even though im eating healthier, i still get to eat that fattening food that ive always enjoyed but ive learned now that i cant eat it everyday, all the time, and that smaller portions = key.

^I know what that sounds like. it sounds like everything they always tell you to do when youre trying to lose wieght. but honestly that IS EXACTLY what you have to do and ive always known it. The BIGGEST CHALLENGE is disciplining yourself and being like “i really want to do this. i really want to be healthy. i really want to wear that cute dress in my closet that i havent been able to wear because it doesnt frickin fit me!!!” lol 

I can honestly say that it hurt me to say no to some wingstop and fries with ranch…but i did it. because i knew that the reward in the long run was going to be so worth it. and now i CAN eat that once in a while because i lost 50 pounds and i deserve a treat here and there. 

I’ll post up some pictures soon enough so you all can get motivated lol

and for those of you trying to lose weight….DISCIPLINE YOURSELF. KEEP YOUR GOAL IN MIND. all that unhealthy food is ALWAYS going to be there. as harsh as this sounds…you wont live forever and if you continue with those unhealthy habits, your time will go by even faster. 

ITS ALL IN YOUR MIND. if you want to lose weight you WILL. i believe in you.

*** and i must say that you shouldnt be losing weight because you want to look like that unrealistically skinny model in the magazines or on tv**** you should be losing weight to be healthy and feel good in your own body. Im not saying you have to be skinny to feel good in your body because when i was almost 220 lbs, i was very confident ! but there was a part of me that knew my lifestyle was going to damage me. fast food everyday, alcohol every weekend, no exercise. it WILL CATCH UP TO YOU. 

dont do it for anyone else. do it for yourself. dont do it because someone is pressuring you to. do it because youre ready. do it because you know in the long run, you will be healthy, look good, and you will be able to write a blog about it motivating other people to do it ;] 

updating this. i swear :]

I should have just made this my study abroad blog as well lol but because i made a whole other blog, i probably wont be posting  much in this one. so follow my other one pattyinargentina.tumblr.com :D im doing a good job in keeping things updated but then again i start school monday so that may change a bit. either way keep up with me ;D ! 

trendy ass people :/. wat the fuck is going on with everyone? stop using the same clothes as one another, listening to the same lame music, using the same stupid words, and going to the same damn places. FUCK. BE ORIGINAL!

i will forever love Harry Potter lol. Seriously, i use to have J.K. Rowling under my heros in myspace (you know that lame website no one ever goes on anymore) lol i wrote she was my hero because of her “unbelievable imagination and for allowing me to find an escape in her books ”. Some people thought i was a “loser” but i didnt care. I got so lost in the HP books that i really wanted it to be real. The magic, the characters, the setting, the story line, everything was just simply beautiful. I could go hours reading not worrying about anything except what Harry Potter would face next and the lessons he would learn, the friendships that would grow stronger, and the people who would suffer at his unbelievable survival at every life threatening event. waaaahhh why is this last movie marking an “end”? :/ I just have to keep thinking “The Magic Will NEVER end”. Every time I open a Harry Potter book i will reminisce about my childhood and remember what a big part of my life it was and I know every time i will love each book even more. So this is not goodbye Harry Potter, this is until next time :] <3 <3 <3